We have these days where we wake up and we don’t feel our best. We take some Tylenol or NyQuil, lay back down, and pray we feel better when we wake back up. Some of us are blessed to just feel bad for a few days. However, that is not the case for me. I battle a rare sickness Neuroendocrine cancer that most people don’t see or understand. Some people find out that they are terminally ill and just automatically give up on life. They stop showing up to family functions, school events, or activities they love. They think, “what is the point of me doing these things? I wont be around much longer.” I understand how someone can feel like this but, I also know that we cannot base our time on Earth on the estimated time a doctor may give us. Only God knows when our time here is up. So we must continue to get up, push through, and live our best life possible. When people look at me they don’t see the pain I am experiencing. They just see a normal 27 year old female because of my ability to shine through my sickness. It took me a while to understand that this journey I am going through is not mine alone. That to get through this battle I needed God in my life more than ever. Every morning I wake up and I thank the Lord for blessing me with the gift of life. I get up and get my kids ready for school no matter how bad I feel. Being a mom is such an amazing blessing and seeing their faces gives an amazing boost to my attitude. They make it easy for me to continue to push through my sickness. I make sure I keep myself involved in different activities to keep my body active. If it’s not serving in church or being involved in dance, I am doing something with my kids. The one thing that I have realized since being sick is that I was not as appreciative of my good health until I got ill. So every day no matter how bad I feel, I look at things from a positive perspective. I am alive and know that I am lucky to see another day because there is someone somewhere who did not get to wake up. There is someone’s family somewhere mourning the loss of their loved one. So I get up and smile knowing that there is nothing but memories to be made today.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31NLT